WATP
Did my 4 mile WATP tape today.
I forgot how fun it was!
I'm almost at my November goal of walking 20 miles, I have walked........19 miles so far!!! Only one more to go and I'll probably go over my goal which is EXCELLENT! I'm feeling much better.
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Lose weight
How do you lose weight?
How are you losing weight?
The big bad hump
How do I get over this hump??? I'm SO stuck.
Thank you all for your kinds words. I know you are all right, I just need to give myself time and stick to plan, eat good foods for my body and exercise, so simple no? Then why is it SO fucking difficult?
It was my birthday yesterday and honestly I felt like shit. The day before (saturday) I went shopping and guess what?? I went up 3 fucking sizes =(. I couldn't believe myself, I stood in the changing room utterly disgusted with myself, I wanted to cry so bad but I couldn't my mom was waiting outside to see how the pants fit, I showed her and she was shocked too, the size 13 pants were SO tight. I tried on the 14's, TIGHT. 15?? They didn't have any 15's. It was so embarassing asking for a 15. In the beginning of this year I was a size 12. Last year I was a size 10-11. What am I gona be next year size 20?
I don't know what's happening to me. I need help. I need support. I need a hug. I need someone who understand me. I need a friend. I don't have any of that here. That's one of the reasons I made this blog so I could gain support from others that are on the same journey. I have been truly inspired by so many of you.
I tell myself everyday, I can do it, I can do it. But why can't I? Why is it that whenever I get serious about something, I step on the scale and am disappointed, discouraged. Everything goes to a waste after that, I stop exercising, thinking what's the fucking point, I'm going to be fat forever. Then a few days later I see an amazing dress and I want it so bad and tell myself again I can do it, I can do it. It all repeats over and over again.
Someone please smack me. Tell me, "it's so easy" just stick with it Min..you can do it, you are better then this, you can make your life change, believe in yourself.
I feel like I'm breaking inside, everything is so hard, so out of reach for me, ALWAYS.
Someone help...
=D
Happy 19th Birthday to ME!!!
(I'll be back tomorrow to update, but right now I'm going to go have some fun!!!)
Shitty day
I worked out 5 times this week, more then I have done in a LONG TIME. Guess what?
I
gained 1 pound =(.
I feel so discouraged. I can't believe this, I don't know what I'm doing wrong.
I think it's my eating. It's not out of control, I always thought I was eating healthy. I guess it's time to go back to counting, which I DESPISE, I hate doing it because it's not something I want to do for the rest of my life.
Bleh. I feel like shit. The End.
Exercise check in #4 + some
UGH! All I have to say is I feel like shit at home these days. Not getting along with my parents AT ALL. I feel like I'm always feeling angry. I guess this is why a lot of teens move out when they are 17-18 and I'm turning 19 in 9 days and still living at home. I just HOPE TO GOD that I will get a job soon so most of my days will be spent outside of the house instead of inside. I need the money too, I need a cell phone and money to spend when I go out and of course money for new clothes because I'm going to slim down right??? LOL. I'm going to apply for a job at the library I REALLY REALLY TRULY HOPE that I will get the job!
Did a 2 mile brisk walk today = 30 minutes :)
This weeks exercise minutes so far: 135 minutes
Exercise Check in #3
Did my 2 mile WATP tape today, it felt gooooood. I have been doing good with food lately except for a couple of chocolate incidents that I'm not very proud of =(. Oh well you live and learn right?
Did I ever mention that my mom walks about 7-8 miles A DAY? She has only lost about 5 pounds in 3-4 months BUT she has lost TONS of inches off her waist and hips...she looks sooooo slim, I'm so proud of her! Sometimes I feel a little embarassed around her, everyone always compliments on her body and how she looks like she has lost tons of weight and that she's getting too skinny, I just feel bad that I should be doing the same thing as her, she was never overweight to begin with weighed 30 pounds less then me. She loves walking it's a part of her day now and I really hope that's how my workouts will be like for me.
Anyways!!! I'm happy that I got my 2 miles in today =)
This weeks exercise minutes so far: 105 minutes
Exercise Check in #2
Just checking in again..Did 1 mile today :) I'm glad I at least did one.
So that's 15 more minutes added to my weekly exercise minutes.
This weeks exercise minutes so far: 75 minutes
Exercise check in
Did another 2 mile walk today, it was 30 minutes. I feel sooooooo GOOD!
Approx: 194 calories burned (most likely more since there are other moves involved in the walking
)
Weekly exercise minutes so far: 60 minutes
Minutes of Exercise
Instead of recording my weekly losses I'm going to record weekly minutes of exercise, I think that's more positive and will keep me more sane. I will however, still record my weight once a week but not like how I had designed to.
Today I did the 2 mile WATP tape it was great, first time trying the video..I just bought it today along with the 3 mile they were on sale. I like it instead of plain ol' walking for 2 miles you do 4 other moves, I enjoyed it and plan on doing it again tomorrow.
So far
30 minutes of exercise this week.
It means everything
Did intervals of running and walking 1 minute each Monday and Tuesday on monday it took me 15 minutes and 30 seconds to do 1 mile yesterday it took me 14 minutes and 20 seconds!! Isn't that great? I felt so good. Today I'm taking a break, I'm upset and feel like crap and thank god I didn't goto food for comfort instead I talked to myself and told myself that even if hard work goes unnoticed whatever I do I do it for myself and no one else, so why should anyones opinions matter?
I got accepted into a college of my choice and my dad told me "it doesn't mean anything" when I have worked my ass off these past 2 years to get to this point, after dropping out of school cause I thought I wasn't smart enough, I went back and now I will be graduating soon and I'm accepted into this college and he tells me it doesn't mean anything?? I felt like shit. I felt like all those good grades counted for nothing, as I ran for the bathroom to cry my eyes out, I talked to myself and let me know that I love me for being brave and getting to this point in my life. Today is a milestone for me I am extremely proud of myself. I don't care what people think I'm doing this for me because I deserve it, if my father doesn't think it means anything then he can just shove it =)
BTW I decided what I want to do, I want to be a elementry teacher. 5 years of college/university here I come!!!
